Question of the day – where’s the balance between accepting who you are and pursuing paths that leverage that identity, and striving to be a different person? I was writing email to a friend last night and made the claim that a lack of self-acceptance drives American culture, from our dieting crazes to our willingness to spend ourselves into massive debt to fortify our self-worth with material goods. And yet, complacency and full acceptance of one’s faults and shortcomings would lead to stagnation. As always, there’s got to be a balance, but sometimes it’s tough to find.<\/p>\n
To take the personal case, as always, one of my strengths is my ability to come up almost instantaneously with theories and comments and thoughts in response to others’ theses. I am most comfortable in a Greek chorus type role, commenting on the action, but not necessarily leading it. In email conversations, livejournal comments, even real conversations, I’ll come up with theory after theory in response to others. But place me on the spot and say “Be interesting and witty”, and I go completely blank. That’s true even of this blog. If you go back and look, you’ll find that most of the posts start off with “I was talking\/IMing\/emailing a friend and…” <\/p>\n
Back to the original question. Do I accept this tendency in myself, and find ways to nurture it and pursue it (e.g. move towards becoming a pundit)? Or do I strive to be a different person, the methodical deep-thinker that could write the book on cognitive subroutines I’ve posited? Or is this a false dichotomy? Could I be that deep-thinker if I just applied myself, and worked hard<\/a>? Is this really part of my identity, or am I just rationalizing wildly in an attempt to be lazy? <\/p>\n It extends to all aspects of life. As previously noted, I tend towards being a generalist<\/a>. Broad but shallow knowledge, rather than the deep focused knowledge that I might gain in a PhD program. There are some ways in which that focus might make me more employable. Instead, I’m finding a niche with a consulting firm where my ability to react quickly with a broad knowledge base is an asset, rather than a liability. Is this capitulating to my laziness or capitalizing on my strengths? I can’t tell any more.<\/p>\n